Dear God..somewhere in heaven or whatever....
I am so trough... 2011 was the badest year in my whole life...
A year full of mistakes, bad infos, misfortune, discussion, deaths and many more...
I can`t count how many times I`ve cried.
I can`t count how many times I`ve tought and said "I wanna die!"
I can`t count how often I wished that something what happened would be just a silly nightmare..
I can`t count how often I grieved and was hiding under my blanket and hoping that the next day would come faster...

Sounds really depressing I know... but that`s exactly what`s my impression from 2011...

dying family members
broken friendships
sudden  unemployment
loss from important things
discussions which shouldn`t have happened at all
money problems
needless buyed stuff - I mean especially the fabrics for cosplays which`ll never happen thanks to some circumstances...
my car accident... the loss from my beloved car.... and the wounds which are still hurting
The news which will change my life for the coming year....
The output from my disease... the therapy...the outcome... and all those visits by he doctors...
and totally important cause I am crybaby... my broken heart.

Yeah 2011 you`ve leaved me in a fatal state...
I am afraid to ask for a better 2012 bu I know... in the end he totally opposite`ll happen ...